Goodbye my Love! On October 10, 2021 at 3am the love of my life James Davis Grant went home to Heaven! He died after only five days. He got sick and I took him to the hospital. They tested him and he tested positive for the Delta Variant of Covid-19. They wouldn't let me stay with him. But three days later the Dr. called at 4am and told me he had taken a turn for the worse and had crashed and would not survive. He told me to call our three adult children and to come in and say goodbye even though James was already so far gone he wouldn't know we were even there. We went in and other than to come home and take a nap and grab a shower twice I was there till the end. I was holding his hand when he took his last breath. The next few days were a blur as we made decisions for his funeral. My Mom and Sister flew in. How do you reconcile the loss of your heart? How do you comfort your three grown children and grandchildren who are only 8, 5, 1 and 5 months old? How do you figure out how to go on with life and pick up the pieces? How do you try to even think about paying bills, fixing a broken van, paying for a funeral, getting a job when you have been bed ridden for 12 years when all you want to do is curl up in a ball? How can I carry this load? How can I do all that this man has done for me for so very long plus walk through this valley? God I need your strength! I will be writing on Granny Grizzly In AK (AudOneWidow) Blog from now on. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read.