I haven't forgotten about this blog in the last several months I have just been in a very bad way and haven't felt like writing anything at all. Today I was creating a new blog for my extended family to keep in touch and I realized how very long it has been since I had written anything on here.
I haven't made much progress, if any, health wise. But my sweet James still treats me like I am his princess. Today he brought me a skor candy bar. Don't ask me where he got the money or the time.
He had come in from work for lunch and for the fourth day in a row I was still in bed hurting bad and when he tried to talk to me about it I just burst into tears...not at all like me. I just spilled over telling him I hate this chair, I hate being sick, I hate hurting, I hate being usless, I hate being alone, I hate being lonely...I just dumped it all on him. And he didn't need more burdens right now. But I had held it in as long as I could and out it came. I told him I had been trying to deal with this "go around" of pain without saying anything to anyone, even him, because as tired as I am of talking about it they all HAD to be tired of hearing about it. So it had been a very bad four days but I was just not saying anything.
He just hugged me and went back to work in his usual sweet way. But he called for little nothings four times in the two hours he was gone! And when he came home he had some how found a way with no money in the bank, no toilet paper and no gas in the vehicles to bring me a candy bar. His own sweet quiet way of saying I love you, I notice, I heard every word you said and I care!
We of course split the candy bar and watched a movie together! I am not OK but I am 100 times better.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Thursday, November 19, 2009
My Turn
I couldn't sleep last night. I've been up since James woke me up at 9am yesterday. 24hrs now. So...When the alarm went off I fixed coffee, sausage gravy, homemade biscuits, cheese grits and eggs for breakfast all from scratch, nothing prepackaged, and fed my family a good meal to start their day! It felt good. I am so very tired, but feel better that I gave instead of always being on the recieving end!
Wed.
To a lot of people this would just be another day in the middle of another week, in the middle of the year. To me it was waking up once again to my so very sweet husband. When I paniced that we had overslept and needed to get the kids up for school, he was so calm and tender when he told me that it was after 9am and he had already taken them to school.
He had gotten up, got the kids up, fed them, taken them to school and let me sleep in. Then while I was getting dressed the dear sweet man snuck into the kitchen and made me breakfast!
Of course feeling guilty at having done nothing, I started to strip the bed and he even came in and helped me strip and remake the bed!! The man never stops! I can't out give or out love him! But I am so very, very thankful for him!!
He had gotten up, got the kids up, fed them, taken them to school and let me sleep in. Then while I was getting dressed the dear sweet man snuck into the kitchen and made me breakfast!
Of course feeling guilty at having done nothing, I started to strip the bed and he even came in and helped me strip and remake the bed!! The man never stops! I can't out give or out love him! But I am so very, very thankful for him!!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
M&M's = Love
I didn't post yesterday so these will be out of order, but this is for yesterday!
There I was, laying in the recliner, again! How many days in a row was it now? I can't even remember...6, 7 days. Haven't washed my hair, haven't even brushed it in two days because it hurts too bad to have the brush touch it.
James got up without a word, woke the kids for school, made them breakfast, brought me a plate and a cup of coffee, took the kids to school in the -13 degree weather, went to work, picked up his check, paid bills, and found time in the middle of it all to stop and buy me a treat.
Not, mind you, a little bag of candy, or even a extra large, but a full 1 pound bag of M&M's!
It's not the kind of candy he bought, it is that with doing his chores for the day and mine, he was thinking of me...in a BIG way!! And while that was all our finances could afford he did all he could to show me he was thinking of me and worrying about me instead of being frustrated that he was out extra long doing extra work, because of me.
How many times have I gotten irritated at having to do something extra to lighten his load when he asked? How many times have I missed an opportunity to show him how important he is in my life?
The little things DO count!
There I was, laying in the recliner, again! How many days in a row was it now? I can't even remember...6, 7 days. Haven't washed my hair, haven't even brushed it in two days because it hurts too bad to have the brush touch it.
James got up without a word, woke the kids for school, made them breakfast, brought me a plate and a cup of coffee, took the kids to school in the -13 degree weather, went to work, picked up his check, paid bills, and found time in the middle of it all to stop and buy me a treat.
Not, mind you, a little bag of candy, or even a extra large, but a full 1 pound bag of M&M's!
It's not the kind of candy he bought, it is that with doing his chores for the day and mine, he was thinking of me...in a BIG way!! And while that was all our finances could afford he did all he could to show me he was thinking of me and worrying about me instead of being frustrated that he was out extra long doing extra work, because of me.
How many times have I gotten irritated at having to do something extra to lighten his load when he asked? How many times have I missed an opportunity to show him how important he is in my life?
The little things DO count!
Face Book Response
When I posted the comment that I started this blog page with on face book, a friend of mine replied as follows,"Awww, how romantic! Your post brought tears to my eyes! I am sooo glad you found the perfect mate! I have to beat mine a few more years, before he can qualify for that title! Lol jk I am very happy for the both of you! :)"
This in turn was my answer to her. "Thank you!! He like the rest of the world isn't perfect, but he has taught me thru his actions to focus on what he does right and I find that the other things seem sooo tiny in comparison!
He knows and loves me with all my sin and imperfections, my past and my "baggage", my temper and my stubborness. But instead of dwelling on or even ... Read Morethinking about or seeing those things in me, he sees the woman he waited till he was 34 for God to give him, He sees the Mother of his children, he even sees me as beautiful instead of scarred, overweight, and sick! Now there is a true example of love to watch and learn from! So yes, I know I am VERY undeserving, but OH, so very blessed & thankful!!"
This in turn was my answer to her. "Thank you!! He like the rest of the world isn't perfect, but he has taught me thru his actions to focus on what he does right and I find that the other things seem sooo tiny in comparison!
He knows and loves me with all my sin and imperfections, my past and my "baggage", my temper and my stubborness. But instead of dwelling on or even ... Read Morethinking about or seeing those things in me, he sees the woman he waited till he was 34 for God to give him, He sees the Mother of his children, he even sees me as beautiful instead of scarred, overweight, and sick! Now there is a true example of love to watch and learn from! So yes, I know I am VERY undeserving, but OH, so very blessed & thankful!!"
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